16 weeks

I feel like my head is full of rocks this morning. I was up all night helping to deliver a 16 week fetus. He was perfectly formed! Momma just didn't have a strong enough cervix to keep him in. So sad. My daughter is 16 weeks along and she and I were looking at her pregancy book to see what her baby looks like when I got the call to come to hospital. The book only had a pic of a 14 wk and then jumped to 20 wks. We were wondering what her baby looks like at 16 weeks. I really didn't want such intimate knowledge, but I got it. Fully formed. Golf ball sized head, perfect little legs, feet, hands etc. His little lips were so beautiful... He fit perfectly in my hand and it broke my heart to weigh him and measure him. While I had him on the scale I swear I saw his little lungs try to take one breath. This is NOT work for the faint of heart. They named him Miguel and I gave him a birth/death blessing commending his little spirit to God. These are the kind of images that burn right into one's brain forever.

My daughter just left to go for a doctor appt. Her father is here from WA State for the holidays and he went with her. The baby's father is in Mineloa with his family for the holidays. Lo wants to have her dad go and pick up her best friend, Megan, so she can go with her. I don't know if he'll drive down to South Austin to pick her up or not. I hope so. He's not the most compassionate or cooperative man. duh.

Later:

I ended up going with my daughter to the doctor. Life with their dad often changes on a dime. They did an ultrasound and everything looks good. We saw no evidence of scrotum, but it's still too early to be sure if it's a girl. Laura almost cried at the sight of this little person moving around inside her. The baby was in a breech position so it made it harder to see much. Oh. my. oh. my. oh. my. My baby girl is gonna be a momma.