Wednesday March 28, 2018
Wow. It has been a coon's age since I blogged. I recall that I freaked myself out by insinuating that I had been molested as a child. Yes, I was. More than once. It made my brother's death so conflicted. One one hand it was heart-breaking. On the other it was a relief. And that's all I'm going to say about that today. I may address it again another time.
The country is in a quandary these days. Donald Asshole Trump is the President of the United States. Two years ago this would have been the title of a major joke. Unfortunately it is the truth. He has been in power for just over a year and I say it that way as he has done everything possible to turn his presidency into an oligarchy and has succeeded for the most part. He is in cahoots with Russia, who helped him get elected and continue to interfere with our government and country. The daily stress of it is sometimes overwhelming. People are seeing therapists in droves to attempt to cope better with the whole thing. It isn't helping.
I feel so very alone that it just breaks my heart some days. I have a good buddy I met ten plus years ago who lives in San Jose, CA. She and I have bonded for the most part, but she does this thing once in a while where she checks-out of the friendship. I think I must overwhelm her. I dunno. I'm trying not to take it personally. It's just kind of hard when she announces to me that she has deleted Facebook and needs to take a break for her own "moods" etc. Then she is on FB that same evening posting away and checking back into messenger to see what's there. I know I am intense. Always have been. Just wish I had someone who could tolerate my intensity and not feed into my abandonment issues.
I have a lovely cousin that I've never met. Perhaps she would be someone good to establish more contact with. I dunno.
Anyway, I am currently working at Oak Grove Church preaching every other week and also being an on-call chaplain for CHRIST US Santa Rosa Hospital. Hoping to get a call for interview at a hospice as I need more money than I am currently earning.
Wow. It has been a coon's age since I blogged. I recall that I freaked myself out by insinuating that I had been molested as a child. Yes, I was. More than once. It made my brother's death so conflicted. One one hand it was heart-breaking. On the other it was a relief. And that's all I'm going to say about that today. I may address it again another time.
The country is in a quandary these days. Donald Asshole Trump is the President of the United States. Two years ago this would have been the title of a major joke. Unfortunately it is the truth. He has been in power for just over a year and I say it that way as he has done everything possible to turn his presidency into an oligarchy and has succeeded for the most part. He is in cahoots with Russia, who helped him get elected and continue to interfere with our government and country. The daily stress of it is sometimes overwhelming. People are seeing therapists in droves to attempt to cope better with the whole thing. It isn't helping.
I feel so very alone that it just breaks my heart some days. I have a good buddy I met ten plus years ago who lives in San Jose, CA. She and I have bonded for the most part, but she does this thing once in a while where she checks-out of the friendship. I think I must overwhelm her. I dunno. I'm trying not to take it personally. It's just kind of hard when she announces to me that she has deleted Facebook and needs to take a break for her own "moods" etc. Then she is on FB that same evening posting away and checking back into messenger to see what's there. I know I am intense. Always have been. Just wish I had someone who could tolerate my intensity and not feed into my abandonment issues.
I have a lovely cousin that I've never met. Perhaps she would be someone good to establish more contact with. I dunno.
Anyway, I am currently working at Oak Grove Church preaching every other week and also being an on-call chaplain for CHRIST US Santa Rosa Hospital. Hoping to get a call for interview at a hospice as I need more money than I am currently earning.
